Trying hard

I haven’t had a whole lot of time to come here and post, but have managed to maintain my weightloss so far.  I have lost a few inches, and people are starting to notice.  This week alone, 4 people have said how much skinnier I look.  While I’m a far cry from skinny, I too am noticing the difference in my mass.  LOL. 

Taking it one day at a time, and trying not to let the failures dictate who I am.

Someday A: Rantings of the fat girl who fell off the wagon

and has been rolling around in the dirt, trying to find a way back into the groove of things.  It’s just not happening.  I forced myself to come here. I know BS works.  I saw it the first 90 days.  But you have to use it, and I haven’t been using it.  I’m so not Rockstar material.  I haven’t weighed in two weeks.  I know I’ve gained.  My mood sucks.  Oh, the frustration, the agony, the self pity, and depression.  They have all grabbed me and won’t let go.  Don’t know what to do, or what to say.  Why do we set ourselves up to fail?  Why do I sabotage myself?  Why, Why, Why?  I don’t expect any answers.  I really am just ranting.  Us crazy people do that you know. :0)

Day 5-16A: Well there’s 11 days of my life that I’ll never get back.

When I was a child, I use to have severly allergic reactions to poision plants (ivy, oak, summac, etc) and ended up in the hospital 3 times before we figured it out.

Since I was 9 which was the last time it happened, I’ve been very careful to avoid poision plants.  Until last weekend, when I accidentally fell into a huge pile of them.

Suffice is to say, that I have been miserable the last week or so.  I went immediately to my doc, and he started a series of shots designed to waylay the allergic reaction.

They helped, I didn’t end up in the hospital, but neither has it been a walk in the park…

Actually theres been no walking at all, park or otherwise for almost 7 days now.  It irritated the rash on my legs, back, etc..  I think that the worse is over, so hopefully within a day or two I’ll be back to the grindestone.

I didn’t have any weight loss during this time, but I didn’t gain either, so hurray.  I managed to drink my water, and watch my calorie intake, so it balanced out I guess.

Strangest thing is,  I MISSED working out… How weird is that  !!!!!Loving it…….

day 1-4A: New challenge and keeping up

Well it’s the 4th day of my new 90 challenge.  I challenged myself to drink more water, workout everyday, and log my food.  Things are going good so far.  Keeping up with everything I need to do to improve my life is hard sometimes.

I find myself still needing to do something everyday at bedtime.  Whether its loggin a meal, or doing some situps, or even spending time with my hubby, I feel like I’m always running to keep up.  Too bad that running doesn’t count as a physical workout instead of an emotional one :-)

Hope everyone is doing great. 

Day 88-90: Today is the end of my 90 day challenge.

What was the challenge?   The challenge was that I would stick with buddy slim and continue making small changes for 90 days.  At the end of the 90 days I would evaluate my progress and decide if it was worth it, or if I wanted to eat a bag of donuts.

 What did I learn and how did I do? What I learned was that changing your lifestyle to include healthy options was hard.  There were days that I failed, and days that I soared. But most days I rocked steady.  I lost 19 lbs, 11 inches and 2 dress sizes.  Even with the failures and set backs, I feel that I did great!  So despite it being hard, I will log this as a success.  Yeah!

 Will I go on?   Yes, I am officially challenging myself (and you ) to another 90 days.  I vow to incorporate all the healthy habits that I have learned and add some new ones.  I need to work on drinking my water, working out EVERY day, logging my food (that REALLY does help me) and saying NO to fast food.

Final thoughts:   I couldn’t have done it without  Buddyslim and all the support from my phenominal buddies here.   .

You guys ROCK  !!!!!!

Day 85-87: nothing to say really

just checking in.  I maintained at weigh in.  No loss, No gain.

Its just too darn hot here to even think about upping my walking time, so I guess I’m going to have to up my video time.

Hope all is well with everyone..

Day 80-84: Crazy, busy.

We’ve been hanging out at the hospitial with my g-father in-law, who is in intensive care(they think he will be okay now).  Tina I can relate with that hospitial food now.  I chose the “best” choices they had, which were chicken strips (3), mashed potatoes(1/4 cup) and cauliflower (1/2 cup) and it was STILL loaded in so much grease that I wanted to hurl.  That just blows my mind that a HOSPITIAL would not have healthy food.  So I went and bought me some granola bars and that’s what I’ve been living on. Oh, and I made my hubby go to the bar-b-que place down the street and get me some green beans. LOL

On exercise, I’ve been walked the hospitial halls, so I’ve managed to log about 15 miles so far this week.  I even stopped outside and did some squats and push-ups. People sure look at you funny when they see you doing that.  I wanted to say “haven’t you ever seen anyone work out before?”, but I was nice and didn’t say it. I just kept on with a big smile on my face.

All that aside, I sat around alot the last few days, so I need to get up and move today, but am just exhausted.  Why does sitting around worrying wear you out so much??  I feel like I’ve run a triathalon.

Hope you all are having a great week. 

90 day challenge ends in only 6 days …………

Day 76-79:Doing better

Getting past all those fast food excursions, trying to drink all my water, and working out some.  I am 1 lb from my mini goal.  This is the closet I’ve ever been.  I give credit to buddy slim, and all the amazing support buddies that I have.  You guys rock! 

Have a great weekend.

Day 74-76

I swear it seems as if I’ve eaten out everyday this week.

I didn’t have plans to, it just worked out that way.

A girlfriend was in town unexpectedly and wanted to go to lunch.  My inlaws came to town and wanted to go to dinner. We had to work late today and I’m just now eating, and yes it’s fast food.  I’ve been working out and drinking water, but can’t seem to break free from fast food.

Not much else going on.  Hope everyone is having a good week so far. 

Day 73: two time failure

So I missed my mini goal again.

I think I”m going to throw my mini goal and my scale away and start over another way.  Any ideas? 

It’s very frustrating to fail twice, AND I’ve gained a pound.

I think I”ll go have some donuts and go back to bed :(

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